It’s been a little quiet around here lately and for that I do apologize. I’m simply having a bit of time management issues juggling self care, my big girl job and running a blog. As soon as I begin to think “yes! I finally got this adulting thing down,” the universe hits me with a curve ball and throws my whole agenda off. I’m still here though.
The other night I was on tumblr and I saw a post that made me really start thinking. I can’t remember the exact wording of it, but it addressed body image. It went something like, “Imagine being born into a body and just liking that body; feeling at home inside of it. Feeling like it’s yours. People like that exist. What is that like?”
Gyms are intimidating but I finally did it. After months of going back and forth, I cracked down and purchased a gym membership. I signed the dotted line on my contract and began mentally listing my fitness goals; Toned arms, legs of steel and a butt to die for. But behind the excitement was a little voice of doubt.
“Do I know what I’m doing?”
“Am I going to stick to this?”
“Will I see results?”
My aunt is one of my favorite people to vent to. She allows me to complain, comforts me, but also reminds me that things can be a lot worse. She would say, “Manta, The universe is trying to teach you something. Be grateful and listen to it.”
Most people who know me offline are very aware of my obsession with house plants. I mean, it’s bad ya’ll. I went to the grocery store to pick up a few things but ended up leaving with two new plant friends. (and without the very thing I stopped at the grocery store for.) However, I didn’t always have a “green thumb.”
I often go through phases with things and hobbies. I’m obsessed with something one week and the next week I’ll be onto a new interest, only to come back to what I loved originally another week later. Some call it fickle. I call it exploring all my passions. At the end of the day, when I love something, you will never hear the end of it. Here’s three things that I’m loving and can’t stop talking about.
Lately I’ve just been going through the same motions; work, eat, stress over finding time to complete a task from my to do list, sleep and repeat. Most evenings I would lay in bed and think where did the day go?! It’s like I’ve been on cruise control or autopilot. And don’t even get me started on linking up with friends. Life is such a blur sometimes that if we do find time to chat, I dread that one question: What have you been up to? How do I make my life not sound so monotonous!?
This morning I had a rough start. It took me much longer than usual to get out of bed and even after I got the ball rolling, I couldn’t stay on task. Nothing in particular was wrong but anxiety doesn’t always need a concrete reason to flare up. It made me think really hard about happiness; What it looks like to me and what I need to do in order to consistently feel it. We’ve all heard that one saying before. Happiness is a choice. Unfortunately, knowing that bit of information isn’t always enough. You have to be aware of the negative behavior or thoughts that are holding you back from happiness. So without further ado, here’s three things I’m letting go to make room for more happiness.
A couple of nights ago, I was scrolling through the events tab on Facebook. Normally I just like to poke around and see what’s going on near me. I never usually attend anything, but one event caught my attention. There’s a coloring club that meets three nights a month at the local Urban Chestnut for brews, coloring and stress relief. Before I could talk myself out of going, I went to the the event page, bought a ticket for the coloring club and patiently waited until Tuesday.
In an effort to take better care of myself, I’ve been attempting to put more thought into my beauty regime. Previously I’d just wash my face with whatever Castile soap I used to bathe with (shout out to Dr. Bronners) throw some jojoba oil on my face and keep it moving but I’m not doing myself any favors going that route. A few months ago, Evan Healy had a pop up event at my job. During this event, vendors gave mini makeovers, demoed product and taught us about proper cleansing techniques. At the end of the demonstration, I was given a choice of face care kits to try in order to get a feel for the product line. Being a lover of all things floral, naturally I chose the rose kit.
The rose kit includes Rose Geranium HydroSoul ( Hydrosoul is basically fancy floral water. They do a better job explaining what it is here.) Rose hip Treatment Facial Serum, Rose Cleansing Milk, French Rose Clay, and a Rose Vetiver Day Moisturizer.
I use the three products pictured above daily. When I first got the kit, I was a little uncertain about how well the Rose Cleansing Milk would work on my oily skin since it doesn’t produce any suds but I love this stuff. It gently washes away dirt and makeup without leaving my skin feeling dry. The rose hydrosoul has a light floral scent that tones my skin and leaves it feeling soft. A little goes a long way but I love rose water so sometimes I go a bit crazy with this. (Also it’s really good to use as a setting/finishing spray after applying make-up.) The Rose hip treatment serum didn’t really impress me. I usually use Jojoba oil to seal in moisture and it didn’t seem to be any more or less beneficial to use the rose hip serum.
The biggest surprise came in one of the smallest containers. The french rose clay is one of the best face masks I’ve ever tried. I use it as a spot treatment whenever I feel a breakout coming (because I really dont want to run out) and it always gets the job done. I’m going to look into buying a full size version of the mask asap because it’s not overly drying and it doesn’t leave my sensitive skin all red and inflamed after.
I chose not to say much about the day moisturizer because I haven’t used it. My face feels so supple after cleansing and toning that I just didn’t think it was necessary. Maybe I’ll revisit it in the drier months when my skin needs a little tenderness.
I really like this kit and it’s also cool that they don’t test on animals, they don’t use parabens or GMOs and most of the ingredients are certified organic. It’s a little pricey though so I’ll definitely be saving my coins up to buy more.
Finding the perfect skin care product involve so much trial and error. What’s your favs? Have you tried Evan Healy?
*disclaimer: this product was given to me by a vendor to sample. This blog receives no payment or other compensation for advertising/reviews. All opinions are my own.
This year is going by incredibly fast and April is no different. This was a month of growth and independence. I went a lot of places alone. I tried new foods and opened myself up to exploring the city. This was a month of loss and facing my fears head on. I’ve spent a lot of time auditing my relationships and thinking “What value does this person bring to my life?”
I’ve backed away from some friends and found support in the unlikeliest of places. Who knew my team members loved me so much!?(I mean, I think I’m great but I’m not always sure if other people can see my light) I learned a lot about what is really important to me. Snuggles with Cat. Phone calls with my boy. Encouraging text messages. Crossing off things from my personal goal list.
I faced set backs but used them to find new purpose. (Hey promotion!) I feel alive and so full of love. I am finally living my truth and growing into the woman I am suppose to be. I’m thankful for all April has brought to me.
I plan to continue this upward transition through May. I want to be more spontaneous and adventurous. I’ve been making an effort to say yes to opportunities placed in front of me rather than turning them down out of fear. I want to continue taking better care of me. I’m going back to therapy. I’m writing again. I’m letting myself be free to do what feels right to me. May, I’m ready for ya!
How was your April? What are your goals for May?