I kept pulling out my phone, pressing the home button then quickly tossing the phone back in my bag.
“What are you checking for?”
“Nothing, I’m just checking the time.”
My mom didn’t press the issue or anything; though she did glance at the watch on my wrist.
“Ok if you say so.”
This is what 2016 felt like to me. Always checking and always hoping for something that just didn’t happen or wasn’t meant to be. My self esteem took a beating, I lost my mind and also lost some friends who probably didn’t deserve my friendship in the first place.
I feel like I’ve done so much waiting and took so many L’s that 2017 has to bring about good things. I’m not going to be too pushy about it though. I don’t want 2017 to kick my ass like its predecessor so here’s to hoping that 2017 is gentle with me. A girl can only take so much.
*disclaimer: 2016 wasn’t all bad. I got my big girl promotion, I got rid of some baggage, made a great new friend and learned so much about myself. I even got to spend the holidays with my family for the first time in years. I felt low a lot of 2016 but it makes me think of this quote I saw somewhere:
“Sometimes we fall down because there is something down there that we’re supposed to find.”
I hope 2016 taught you guys something and I wish nothing but progress for the new year!